Thursday, January 26, 2012

Fix me

I recently saw Joyful Noise with Dolly Parton and Queen Latifah. 

Let me begin by saying that I had heard mixed reviews on this movie so I went into it with an open mind, and heart.  I got there about 5 minutes after the previews had started, expecting to be the only person in the theater.  Instead, I was the youngest!  lol  

While I found much of the acting hysterical (and not necessarily in the good way), I learned two things about sweet Dolly.  First, she isn't the actress I once found incredible in Steel Magnolias.  And second, she dances with the rhythm of a white woman!  I say this because I too, have the rhythm of a white lady.  It was pretty funny to watch.  

Back to the blog at hand, I found so much of the movie spoke to me.  I'm sure that many people will watch this movie and take different things from it.  The things I took from this movie, could fill a stadium!  Honestly, though, I took quite a bit from this movie.  

First, there is a scene with Queen Latifah's character and her son, who has Aspergers.  They are having a conversation about God.  Her son asks her why she loves God.  He then goes on to say that she should hate God for making her son the way he was.  This scene was the most profound for me.  You see, I have felt this way so often.  I don't hate God, but I don't understand how this could have happened to my son.  Wyatt doesn't have Aspergers, but he is different from others.  He will struggle for the rest of his days.  He will become teased and broken by words because he is different.  This thought alone crushes me inside.  People have told me I need to teach him to be strong to it, but I hurt for him.  I know I have talked about this before, but unless you have a child with a "disability" or a visible difference, you have no idea what this feels like.  Not to mention the struggles he has already faced medically in his short 14 months of life.  It just doesn't seem right in my eyes.  Why my baby?  

Anyway, the next scene that made me cry like a baby was actually a song Dolly sings with her grandson.  It's called From Here to the Moon and Back.  It is a very sweet song.  However, this was shortly after the scene mentioned above.  And you see, every night when I tuck Wyatt in to sleep, I tell him I love him to "the moon and back a million, billion, trillion times".  

And lastly, there was a song in the movie that spoke to my very core.  It's called Fix me Jesus.  Below is the youtube link.  It's simple and sweet and incredible.  It's my mantra.  Fix Me Jesus.

I recommend that you at least take a chance on this movie.  It's not the best I have ever seen, but it spoke to my heart.  Maybe it will yours too.